Tonight I had
a bit of a nervous breakdown. I was running on three hours of sleep, mind you. There was a surprise party for Chris and a whole mix of people attended. I got to thinking about how much things have changed and it got to me. I wish I was still as close with one of my dearest friends as I once was.I wish they’d realize how much their significant other blows, and I wish the fact that this person blows didn’t create an awkward tension between my friend and I. I could really use this person to vent to. After the party, we went to Tyler’s and watched a video from just a year and a half ago. I can’t get over how entirely different things were. Went to my mom’s only to find a car in the driveway, I didn’t even want to know who’s it was. Went to my dad’s only to find an empty house.. and sort of just lost it while driving back to Auburn. I was thinking about all that’s due for my art class in just a few hours, the fact that I have a four hour art class in just a few hours and I’m running on three hours of sleep from last night, finals, online history tests, english papers, the fact that I’m moving in two weeks and haven’t even gotten started on my foot long to-do list, and the fact that I have a foot long to-do list. So I called the only person I could think of that would thoroughly listen to all I have to rant and rave about at 2:30AM. Of course, the second they got in my car, I was at ease. And after I was done venting, they didn’t have to lie and tell me anything to make me feel better, they just had to give me a reality check and complain right back. I don’t know what I’ll do without having this person to drive over to at a moment’s notice.
